thirst to nullify / eye for an eye

I'm starting to believe that I was some kind of deity of destruction in my previous life. Constantly lusting after attention, sacrifices, bloodshed. Craving revenge. Lurking in the shadows, itching to see people who have hurt me suffer. Eager to cause crippling pain. Annihilator. Slayer. Unstoppable force that causes havoc. Master of fucking things up on purpose.Don't even care to clean up my mess afterwards. Why sould I? I'm trying to make them hate me anyway. All of them. They need to pay for what they did. That's what I was am, a vengeful spirit.

I don't believe in morality anymore, especially when it comes to romance. We are all animals, no more than talking animals, our primary needs still being to fuck and eat. No one can convince me to think differently. Above all, I am stubborn as shit.

I have often considered myslef bipolar. 
Wanting to see people I love smile and gladly giving out happiness, but craving to watch idiots suffer. Well *shrugs* what can I say. If you don't hurt me, my bad self will never come out.

FYI, I consider staying silent a form of lying, and therefore hurting my feelings. Meaning, staying silent in critical situations, not parttaking, behaving in a completely neutral (indifferent much?) way.



In other news, good drumming